over spilled milk
don't cry over
don't cry over spilling thoughts
over spilled concepts of spilling
don't cry over STOPP-ing thoughts
I will kick every bucket
in this monastery
filled with heart
what I am clinging to
I have lost
my heart burns high
I kicked one hundred
buckets of kerosine
there is ash burning in flames
a bundle of self-hatred
a bundle of pride
and a bundle of peace
some shared desire
“shall I kill you?
shall I suspect you of stealing?"
Better of emptiness,
that's more secure
I have three things left
and – for this bucket of fire –
the flame of my soul
'bereshit' in Hebrew
not to confuse
with “bear a (crock of) shit”
without breaking your heart
– which is heart –
over spilling milk
or nothing, for that matter, not more but merely a thought –
my heart bucket
by the heat
of these flames
inspired by kerosine
and who wrote this book
might heal the world?
who filled my heart
was it you
it would break
what did you do today -
or threw אלHEם
a bucket of Kerosine
on the flame
of my heart
only the kitchen
is on fire
you carry the burden
of being a woman
of your intelligence
The puzzle has assembled itself. In ten dimensions, not unlike the Tree of Life’s, the unfathomable has become capturable. The structure, always visible, now makes sense. It's an open secret, but I've been blind to it. So here I sit and wonder: “What the fuck over, Yahweh?! Lucifer?! THIS is a problem. I think I have to take it to your superior.”
Who do they think cares about their ancient feud? Yahweh didn’t give us free will and is jealous because Lucifer allows people to nibble on the tree of knowledge? Really? Who do they think is interested in this battle of the Gods? Why don’t they take it elsewhere?!
If you ask me, I think they're both offspring of the same tree. The tree comes into perceptibility through the oscillation between those poles, Yahweh and Lucifer. Take one off : —> No tree. The game is: "See me (the tree) through contrast."
So “there once were….” two siblings, both well-meaning, but each going about it very differently. But that's all. They're offspring. They're not IT. They’re not the “Superior,” God, Absolute Reality. Like you and me and our beloved planet, they’re an expression of it. That’s all.
So beyond, beyond, beyond we see. And we don't hesitate, we don't stop, pass go, or collect $200, instead we see: NOW. Penetrate into the heart of things and unhinge the whole racket at once.
"Hate" (in the sense of forcing away what is present) is the specialty of "the enemy," the one perceived as “enemy,” and perceiving “enemy.” And thus, returning to it anger and rejection and fighting-against is useless. For: It's not the specialty of humans. Fighting-against is NOT our strong suit. Moving-with is. Therefore the only overpowering force is Nonviolence. Truthforce. Movement from a pure and present heart. And that's a choice. THAT's what free will is. It's got nothing to do with good or bad, it just doesn't. It's just that moving-with is healthier for human beings, that's all. "It's not good, it's good FOR you."
Because the above-named "superior” loves all of itself, you cannot go wrong by being whatever you are. Whatever you are. Really. Truly. Because whatever you are, you are part of it, and you are it. And however you manifest, each moment, you are loved. That's not the question. LOVE is not the question.
The question is WILL. Free will. True will. Can my true will be different from God’s will and still be sustainable, truly pleasurable, truly desirable, truly be my true will?
To me, violence is anything that fights against the way the life force is present in each moment – a losing battle, anyway, but we try. Nonviolence is anything that moves with the way the life force is present. And if you ask me, that's the only reason to do it, to cultivate nonviolence: That it's simply healthier and less stressful to the human organism. Nonviolence works with our nature. There is a feeling of thriving, life rushing through my veins: Pulsing, halting, coagulating, even dividing. And letting my consciousness flow along with those movements is what makes all the difference. Walking straight through all violence, touched yet untouched, touched but unbothered, laying a new trail of light: And now. And now. And now. Each moment. Walking straight through all of it. Not inferring meaning from the observed. Just waking up each moment, again. And now. And now. And now.
And because that above named "superior” doesn't mind whatever the quality of your outfit, whatever adjective you dress yourself or another with, there is no need to rebel. Because you're accepted rebelling and complying. Because there is no law. There is no law.
Such is free will: The choice is yours. And it's NOT a choice between good or evil. It's not. It's between: Do I still want to fight this? Do I still want to do this to my human organism? Or do I want to position myself in a way that supports and nurtures the inherent nonviolence of this human organism? And yes, Gaian creatures do hunt to eat. Including us human apes. That's NOT what I consider violence. As I see it, hunting to eat is something that arises WITH the flow of all that is.
So our famous free will simply speaks to a choice about self-care, all-care, Gaia-care, NOT to the ability to choose "good or evil". Because there is no good or evil. There just is. Accepting our Gaian condition, which is that violence simply isn't all that natural to us, we can choose to thrive. Just for the fun of it. The joy of it. The well-feeling of it. It's simply going WITH OUR NATURE. That's what I think. It doesn't mean that conflict stops. Because discourse is part of our nature, and how we grow. It just means that fighting the conflict stops, trying to make the obvious go away, that stops.
It’s God’s will that’s my true will. And that will is what is. I can fight this will, or I can will with it. I can observe and be willing to be with its emergence through me. That’s my choice. That’s how free will manifests. No Yahweh, no Lucifer required.
That's my ode to life for today. Thanks for listening.
14. February 2014
i see the dichotomy between the good and evil is the god and satan inference the idea of violence has been since the dawning of time a ever presence of good and evil which had no name to it until writings with a secular vision started to say which one was in the preverse and which one was revealed as such. being mindful of each of the variants and being mindful of the choices that we have. stating the truths as we perceive them instead of what we are told that they are. reality according to our own beings, not through others construct of their reality as opposed to yours. so if violence ie war is as abstract as this and true violence is its end and beginning where do you and i come to play in this play of reality? how do we stop the play of pawn and how do we come to a place of calm and bliss. its in the minds eye that the great eye that is showing us the answers to the universe becomes into agreement within our inner selves. to have peace with our selves is the goal. and thats why the insidious things that were so deploring to you and me have got to be brought back to the base level. going back to simpleness and your core base. i am so proud of you understanding and awareness this is quite the new manifesto of awareness lots of love me bb (David Delbridge)
Purpose & Manipulation
Purpose: Life guiding us toward itself.
Manipulation: Getting people to do what you want them to do.
Ethical question? No.
It's a survival question.
Refrain from manipulation for survival of our species. Here is why:
Getting people to do what you want them to do takes them away from their purpose. This is a very subtle, barely perceptible shift of application of precious attention and focus. Chi. The Force. By using any means (NLP, psychological games, magickal influencing, psy ops, etc) to get them to serve your personal agenda, you funnel their Chi away from their purpose.
Why is this problematic survival-wise?
I don't think we can afford ANYONE to be pulled away from the deep purpose of the unique way All That Is flows through them. We're in the early stages of a delicate and volatile evolutionary transmutation. How can we navigate.
We navigate by dusting our mantel of illusion, touching it, feeling it, absorbing it into our knowing of being. We navigate by learning to perceive the deep subtle almost imperceptible current of LIFE guiding us toward LIFE: our PURPOSE. Ever evolving, ever changing, in its expression, yet at its essence PURPOSE remains the same: LIFE guides us toward itself. THIS is sustainability. Life sustains itself through this process. THIS is purpose.
Anyone who lures someone's attention away from this process to serve their own agenda takes one more vital warrior away. Takes them away from having their attention on their own perception and then expression of what the-unique-way-life-flows-through-them is calling them to do.
Ok. This is my comment on manipulating. On game playing. On treating people as things.
NOW: THIS is the reason to be aware of being manipulated. Because YOU cannot afford to remain asleep and sleep through the subtle wind of your inner currents of LIFE calling you to serve itself. Do not lie to yourself. Do not go out chasing more clothes for your illusions, padding up your images of yourself. Trying to fix the robes and make them golden while the body is rotting. No. Serve the body. The body of life.
Manipulation can be as blatant as a battle axe thrown at you - this is the easy kind, the bully kind, of intimidation and fear. It's easy to recognize, but terrifying to break. There will be threats, there will be harm done to you if you don't comply. They will shame you, they will yell at you, they will hurt you physically, and you WILL temporarily lose touch with the call of stillness within, because you're terrified made to feel guilty but don't fully understand why. You'll feel lonely, and you'll think it's your fault, because someone else appears to be punishing you for abandoning an agenda that is not your own, one which has given you merely a false sense of mattering, meaning, and belonging.
This variety of manipulation requires navigation by something invisible yet clearly distinguishable: INTEGRITY. Integrity is being able to perceive when your actions may contribute to discord externally, but you can feel that something inside you is locking deeply into alignment with something else inside you. At first you may experience pain and fear, for the locking of your actions into place with something deep within you may not at first be much of a reward, considering all the terror you experience from losing harmony, safety, protection, and peace, with those around you demanding you act THEIR way. On the long run, tho, you will begin to notice that with each act in or simply toward accordance with the inner you, the one connected to LIFE, your shoulders get lighter. Your spine straighter. Your face lights up.
But manipulation can also be as subtle as a warm ocean breeze caressing your heart. This kind isn't based on fear, but your pleasure. Seduction. It will dangle fulfilling your hopes and dreams in front of you. It dangles your pleasure of confidence. Absence of rejection. Sexual powers. Human love and attention. Monetary wealth, or spiritual enlightenment - and both, as in our American Promise. This kind of manipulation is very subtle and insidious. It gets into your wallet. Into your mind. Into your actions. You fall into a trance of pursuing your anticipated rewards by doing more of what you think will bring them. World control becomes your aim. Ultimately, it's your-world control, and even your-inner-world control, by striving for outer world control. The unknowingly manipulated becomes a manipulator:
When other people are involved, you will try to please them to give them what makes them release the reward you seek. If the reward is inconsistent and unpredictable, you may try even harder, just trying to figure out how to get the desired love, attention, approval. This one is much harder to break, because when the reward doesn't come, you think you didn't do well enough - yet.
Upon stopping, you will notice a feeling of emptiness. The pursuit of anticipated desire fulfillment has been a kind of filling of its own. When you stop, emptiness strikes, and it strikes doubly: You lose the illusion of future fulfillment. And you lose the trance of pursuit.
Now, bam, you land in this moment and first thing is: Emptiness.
Previous Reader Remarks
3/3/2014 03:45:44 am
this part of the coercion of manipulation is exactly what was done to you so you would question yourself instead of seeing the truth and when you did you blew him out of the water ipso facto then he came after you by the entities he placed inside your body and in and around you. this is so straight out of the luciferian hand book. i am so proud of you and I'm in awe of your survival skills well done my love you have got to know that the goddess is proud of you and that you are a true goddess
Due proper alchemical respects, I have friends and family on the inner planes, including my inner soul husband and our three light body spirit children and their partners and children. Most of my inner experiences and outer writing include them.