The Sacred Serpent: Furnace of burning the seeds of karma
Kundalini force is the most sacred thing: It functions as a god installation at the core of the human body and energy body. Or rather - a goddess installation:
According to Ancient Gnostic teachings, the female pole of creation was so intrigued with her and her partner's creation of humanity, that she decided to descend into the galactic arm into which the human genome had been planted.
This makes our beloved Gaia inspirited by the female aspect of the creator energy. Therefore the matter we are, and upon which we dwell, is highly intelligent energy. When Kundalini gets activated, the sacred spirit of Gaia rises through us. We become a vessel of her creative, primal, life-giving energy. We become an inherent, aware part of her. We have Gaian equipment, and she will take care of us. Our electro-magnetic field is healed, rejuvenated, and strengthened by the earth's electro-magnetic field as well as the healthy organic matter that grows and thrives on it.
(The idea that a trans-human body will do better for our wholeness, integration, and self-/ and godrealization is a racket, and I shall go into this in a different article. For one, clearly, it doesn't have a kundalini force that is synched with the creative force of our great mother, our planet. Anything artificial will be out of synch with Gaia and therefore separate us from her life-giving force.)
"....when roused to rapid activity, it reacts strongly on the parent organism, effecting in course of time subject again to numerous factors, a marvelous transformation of the nervous system and the brain, resulting in the manifestation of a superior type of consciousness, which will be the common inheritance of man in the distant future. " Gopi Krishna
All mystery teachings deal with Kundalini. Kundalini can be roused in many ways, and different schools have different methods. Any form of meditation and spiritual activity will eventually open it. Extended lovemaking, a variety of meditation that simultaneously engages and opens the energy cauldrons of mind, heart, and sex is a sure initiator of this potent force.
"This mechanism, known as Kundalini, is the real cause of all genuine spiritual and psychic phenomena, the biological basis of evolution and development of personality, the secret origin of all esoteric and occult doctrines, the master key to the unsolved mystery of creation, the inexhaustible source of philosophy, art and science, and the fountainhead of all religious faiths, past, present and future." Gopi Krishna
Why the common inheritance of man?
I would say that by the nature of mystery schools having remained a secret, humanity at large is not aware that this potent force is at the core of knowing oneself and knowing oneself as creator, as part of the great god/dess force that flows through all of us. Know Thyself. It's done.
Maybe this secrecy was for protection, for when the sacred serpent rises, it takes with it any subconscious crap, including previously unconscious expanded awareness. The experience can be both terrifying as well as majestic and spiritually fulfilling. Every person's experience is different, of course: Each of us is filled with a unique set of psycho-somatic patterns. So maybe this secrecy was for protection. But honestly, I doubt it.
Why do I doubt that this secrecy was for protection? Because, when people, one, two, or more, engage in extended sexual pleasure, this force will rise no matter what. No matter what. You cannot protect humanity from coming into the experience of the Sacred Serpent and knowledge she brings. Her initiation is an initiation (= beginning) into, and activation of a majestic journey of self- and god-discovery. This self- and god-realization she activates is "the common inheritance of [hu]man[s]" AS LONG AS humanity feels free to enjoy the pleasure inherent in the human body and genitals. As long as we are free and natural with our pleasure, the rising of the Sacred Serpent is inevitable.
Therefore I believe that the secrecy is in order to keep power structures intact. There are mysteries and mysteries. On the path of initiation, there is a crossroads, at which you choose: Do you pursue the path of beauty, of self-knowledge, or do you pursue the path of power, of manipulation of self and others?
The path of beauty is one of surrender to the way things are, a path of achieving union with reality now, and now, and now, without judgment of the experience. The path of power is an attempt at avoiding presence with one's own pains and vulnerabilities. By manipulating the world and everyone in it, facing one's own limitations and tenderness in a human body can be avoided, or at least, delayed until there is nothing more left to try and subdue. If the path of self-knowledge wasn't obstructed by religious and scientific-to-the-exclusion-of-accepting-the-mysterious concepts, much of humanity would soon walk it, for it is a path in alignment with the nature of the human animal. There is no reason to hide the divine equipment, the god/dess installation, within each human. With proper instruction, every person can be initiated and taken through the psycho-somatic and spiritual consequences of the activation safely. But not many people know how to do this anymore, do they?
Once open, one aspect of the Sacred Serpent functions like a furnace within: When a constricting concept or a patterned emotion arises, her sacred fire rushes upwards for a few moments, burning them off, briefly incensed like the flame in a furnace into which you have thrown some seeds.
Another aspect is that God is always close. This shows up differently in different people: Some experience a non-dual, detached state of consciousness. Others experience bliss in their body. For me, it's spontaneous states of reverence. I personally let the Serpent do her work, for I trust her 1000%. It's the Sacred Serpent, the very consciousness and spirit of our planet - it has to be good.
The Sacred Serpent will, at times, intensify perception of both blissful as well as terrifying states. This is a reason to be lovingly cautious and aware with the impact Kundalini has on the human psyche and body. It opens the doors of perception, and not always will one be pleased with what's behind the door. Therefore an attitude of surrender to life, of embracement of what-is, is helpful when encountering this sacred force: A willingness to experience both the horrendous as well as the blissful with equal acceptance.
Since neither is the Ultimate itself, but only an expression of it, with that a pointer to and proof of it, taking an attitude of equilibrium toward both the pain and the pleasure allows the karmic seeds to exhaust themselves. They joy of experience is in recognizing that it proves the existence of the Ultimate, Ever-changing-form-without-end, no matter whether we approve or disapprove of the content of that experience. Interference with the natural unfolding of experience by trying to avoid the pain, or holding on to the pleasure, will make things worse.
Ultimately, it looks to me, Kundalini fire allows for the gradual burning of karmic impressions, with that gradually removing the veils upon veils upon veils of illusion that keep us from knowing our at-one-ness with the pure creative aliveness of all-that-is.
I got woken up by radio crackling at 5:50 am, followed by a male voice, with the words "There she is." He had a North Carolina twang.
(I had just then become aware of knocking at the space I so carefully have learned to set up. Half asleep, I had adjusted the field to allow two friends. And a moment later, the voice. I suspect I had briefly dropped my intentional shield. The good news, in this case, is that it is possible to control one's EM field from within. Part of me still doesn't consider what I'm experiencing possible. I have heard enough accounts from solid sources that confirm its reality, including both shamanic, metaphysical, psychic, and energetic, as well as technological and scientific perspectives.)
I sat up straight in bed. I hadn't slept very well to begin with, tossing and turning all night, and now this. I was annoyed. "This sucks!" I felt a singular ache in my the front joint of my left index finger.
I got up, went to the bathroom, and thought: Time to get up anyways. While I was prancing through my apartment, I felt pressure on the right side of my heart, on the rib bone. I thought of meditating straight away, perfect time, dawn, but then I decided to see if I could track the guy and see what the fuck he thought he was doing. So I went back to my room and sought him.
He isn't that far yet. I'm able to enter him through his heart. He's on some kind of flying vessel, wearing a cap, or beret, or so. In front of him, on his dashboard, is what looks a bit like an ultrasound screen. That's where he sees me down on the ground. He's doing his rounds. I trample around a bit in his heart, make a bit of a fuzz: "What does it feel like, huh!" I travel into his foot, into his right front big toe joint, and stimulate some ache. "Now you know what it feels like!" I tell him. Obviously I'm not over being annoyed yet.
I tell him: "You're a man, I'm a woman. Already there is a power differential. You're stronger than me. What about protection, instead of pestering me? You're in the military, I'm a civilian. See the power differential? Is that how you use your power?"
I receive from him that he's on a stealth vessel, making rounds like this one about once a month.
"You're hidden, I'm visible. What about your honor in targeting someone vulnerable such as myself? I'm naked, you're in uniform. You're in a military vessel, I'm in bed. Do you think it's not unsacred to pester me?"
"You're on this list!" he says. "It means you must have done something."
"How can you know that." I say. "I'm born a European citizen. I became an American so I could vote and participate in our democracy. Do you believe in democracy?"
"I don't know." he says.
"Do you vote?" I ask.
"Mostly." He votes Republican. Out of habit. It makes sense perhaps, since he works for the military.
"Do you think our economy is down and needs rebuilding?"
"I try to supplement my income." he answers.
I'm confused for a moment what that has to do with my question. I wanna go on, but realize I should settle with this and find out more. I figure he said that as a response, because that's how he personally is dealing with our current economic enviornment, by supplementing his income.
"What do you mean? How?"
I receive in his reply that he's doing it by accepting these assignments, I guess they're special assignments. He's about 45, shows me his family and home. He's kinda in a trance. A wife, a younger child, around 3 or 4 years old, that he feels very responsible for, and an about 10-11 year old son for whom he cares, about whom he worries. And then something about his brother, or his brother's son, who seems a bit younger, like 27, who's also in the military, Iraq. The family pic and his wanting to raise his children well and provide for his family touches me.
"Do you believe that those who don't have a job like yours where they can supplement their income need a way to support themselves?"
"I help people, especially women, become confident about their small businesses."
"Women shouldn't work," he says.
I say: "If their husbands aren't working, or don't bring in enough money to feed the family? What would you do if you were a woman with kids and your husband wasn't working, or left, or was beating you?"
He gets it.
"Maybe I'm not on this list because I did something bad. Maybe I'm on this list because I'm a human being who can come and have this conversation with you."
"I'm sorry," he says.
"How does it work, how often do you make such rounds?"
"About once a month" he says.
"Is it always you, or is it different people?"
"I try to pick 'em up if I can." The shifts. So he can supplement his income, to feed his family. I totally get it.
"Do you like food?"
"Do you like to make love to your wife?"
"Do you care for and like playing with your children?"
"Do you like a good night's rest?"
"Me, too. I like food. I like making love to the man I love. I like playing with children. I like a good night's rest. Can you at least not wake me up?"
"I'm sorry, Maria." He says. He knows my name!
I look at his screen, it's white type on blue background, a list of names on it. It looks like they've even spelled my last name correctly. Someone thorough must have input the data. I appreciate that.
The puzzle has assembled itself. In ten dimensions, not unlike the tree of life, the unfathomable has become capturable. The structure, always visible, now makes sense. It's an open secret, but I've been blind to it. So here I sit and wonder: "What the fuck over, Yahweh? Lucifer? THIS is a problem. I think I have to take it to your superior."
Who do they think cares about their ancient feud? Yahweh didn’t give humans free will and is jealous because Lucifer allows them now to nibble on the tree of knowledge? Really? Who do they think is interested in this battle of the Gods? Why don't they take it elsewhere?!
If you ask me, I think they're both offspring of the same tree. The tree comes into perceptibility through the oscillation between those poles, Yahweh and Lucifer. Take one off : —> No tree. The game is: "See me (the tree) through contrast."
So “there once were….” two siblings, both well-meaning, but each going about it very differently. But that's all. They're offspring. They're not IT. They’re not the “Superior,” God, Absolute Reality. Like you and me and our beloved planet, they’re an expression of it. That’s all.
So beyond, beyond, beyond we see. And we don't hesitate, we don't stop, pass go, or collect $200, instead we see: NOW. Penetrate into the heart of things and unhinge the whole racket at once.
"Hate" (in the sense of forcing away what is present) is the specialty of "the enemy," the one perceived as “enemy,” and perceiving “enemy.” And thus, returning to it anger and rejection and fighting-against is useless. For: It's not the specialty of humans. Fighting-against is NOT our strong suit. Moving-with is. Therefore the only overpowering force is Nonviolence. Truthforce. Movement from a pure and present heart. And that's a choice. THAT's what free will is. It's got nothing to do with good or bad, it just doesn't. It's just that moving-with is healthier for human beings, that's all. "It's not good, it's good FOR you."
Because the above-named "superior” loves all of itself, you cannot go wrong by being whatever you are. Whatever you are. Really. Truly. Because whatever you are, you are part of it, and you are it. And however you manifest, each moment, you are loved. That's not the question. LOVE is not the question.
The question is WILL. Free will. True will. Can my true will be different from God’s will and still be sustainable, truly pleasurable, truly desirable, truly be my true will?
To me, violence is anything that fights against the way the life force is present in each moment – a losing battle, anyway, but we try. Nonviolence is anything that moves with the way the life force is present. And if you ask me, that's the only reason to do it, to cultivate nonviolence: That it's simply healthier and less stressful to the human organism. Nonviolence works with our nature. There is a feeling of thriving, life rushing through my veins: Pulsing, halting, coagulating, even dividing. And letting my consciousness flow along with those movements is what makes all the difference. Walking straight through all violence, touched yet untouched, touched but unbothered, laying a new trail of light: And now. And now. And now. Each moment. Walking straight through all of it. Not inferring meaning from the observed. Just waking up each moment, again. And now. And now. And now.
And because that above named "superior” doesn't mind whatever the quality of your outfit, whatever adjective you dress yourself or another with, there is no need to rebel. Because you're accepted rebelling and complying. Because there is no law. There is no law.
Such is free will: The choice is yours. And it's NOT a choice between good or evil. It's not. It's between: Do I still want to fight this? Do I still want to do this to my human organism? Or do I want to position myself in a way that supports and nurtures the inherent nonviolence of this human organism? And yes, Gaian creatures do hunt to eat. Including us human apes. That's NOT what I consider violence. As I see it, hunting to eat is something that arises WITH the flow of all that is.
So our famous free will simply speaks to a choice about self-care, all-care, Gaia-care, NOT to the ability to choose "good or evil". Because there is no good or evil. There just is. Accepting our Gaian condition, which is that violence simply isn't all that natural to us, we can choose to thrive. Just for the fun of it. The joy of it. The well-feeling of it. It's simply going WITH OUR NATURE. That's what I think. It doesn't mean that conflict stops. Because discourse is part of our nature, and how we grow. It just means that fighting the conflict stops, trying to make the obvious go away, that stops.
It’s God’s will that’s my true will. And that will is what is. I can fight this will, or I can will with it. I can observe and be willing to be with its emergence through me. That’s my choice. That’s how free will manifests. No Yahweh, no Lucifer required.
That's my ode to life for today. Thanks for listening.
Previous Reader Remarks
2/22/2014 03:24:53 am
i see the dichotomy between the good and evil is the god and satan inference the idea of violence has been since the dawning of time a ever presence of good and evil which had no name to it until writings with a secular vision started to say which one was in the preverse and which one was revealed as such. being mindful of each of the variants and being mindful of the choices that we have. stating the truths as we perceive them instead of what we are told that they are. reality according to our own beings, not through others construct of their reality as opposed to yours. so if violence ie war is as abstract as this and true violence is its end and beginning where do you and i come to play in this play of reality? how do we stop the play of pawn and how do we come to a place of calm and bliss. its in the minds eye that the freat eye that is showing us the answers to the universe becomes into agreement within our inner selves. to have peace with our selves is the goal. and thats why the insidious things that were so deploring to you and me have got to be brought back to the base level. going back to simpleness and your core base. i am so proud of you understanding and awareness this is quite the new manifesto of awareness lotsof love me bb
Purpose & Manipulation
Purpose: Life guiding us toward itself.
Manipulation: Getting people to do what you want them to do.
Ethical question? No.
It's a survival question.
Refrain from manipulation for survival of our species. Here is why:
Getting people to do what you want them to do takes them away from their purpose. This is a very subtle, barely perceptible shift of application of precious attention and focus. Chi. The Force. By using any means (NLP, psychological games, magickal influencing, psy ops, etc) to get them to serve your personal agenda, you funnel their Chi away from their purpose.
Why is this problematic survival-wise?
I don't think we can afford ANYONE to be pulled away from the deep purpose of the unique way All That Is flows through them. We're in the early stages of a delicate and volatile evolutionary transmutation. How can we navigate.
We navigate by dusting our mantel of illusion, touching it, feeling it, absorbing it into our knowing of being. We navigate by learning to perceive the deep subtle almost imperceptible current of LIFE guiding us toward LIFE: our PURPOSE. Ever evolving, ever changing, in its expression, yet at its essence PURPOSE remains the same: LIFE guides us toward itself. THIS is sustainability. Life sustains itself through this process. THIS is purpose.
Anyone who lures someone's attention away from this process to serve their own agenda takes one more vital warrior away. Takes them away from having their attention on their own perception and then expression of what the-unique-way-life-flows-through-them is calling them to do.
Ok. This is my comment on manipulating. On game playing. On treating people as things.
NOW: THIS is the reason to be aware of being manipulated. Because YOU cannot afford to remain asleep and sleep through the subtle wind of your inner currents of LIFE calling you to serve itself. Do not lie to yourself. Do not go out chasing more clothes for your illusions, padding up your images of yourself. Trying to fix the robes and make them golden while the body is rotting. No. Serve the body. The body of life.
Manipulation can be as blatant as a battle axe thrown at you - this is the easy kind, the bully kind, of intimidation and fear. It's easy to recognize, but terrifying to break. There will be threats, there will be harm done to you if you don't comply. They will shame you, they will yell at you, they will hurt you physically, and you WILL temporarily lose touch with the call of stillness within, because you're terrified made to feel guilty but don't fully understand why. You'll feel lonely, and you'll think it's your fault, because someone else appears to be punishing you for abandoning an agenda that is not your own, one which has given you merely a false sense of mattering, meaning, and belonging.
This variety of manipulation requires navigation by something invisible yet clearly distinguishable: INTEGRITY. Integrity is being able to perceive when your actions may contribute to discord externally, but you can feel that something inside you is locking deeply into alignment with something else inside you. At first you may experience pain and fear, for the locking of your actions into place with something deep within you may not at first be much of a reward, considering all the terror you experience from losing harmony, safety, protection, and peace, with those around you demanding you act THEIR way. On the long run, tho, you will begin to notice that with each act in or simply toward accordance with the inner you, the one connected to LIFE, your shoulders get lighter. Your spine straighter. Your face lights up.
But manipulation can also be as subtle as a warm ocean breeze caressing your heart. This kind isn't based on fear, but your pleasure. Seduction. It will dangle fulfilling your hopes and dreams in front of you. It dangles your pleasure of confidence. Absence of rejection. Sexual powers. Human love and attention. Monetary wealth, or spiritual enlightenment - and both, as in our American Promise. This kind of manipulation is very subtle and insidious. It gets into your wallet. Into your mind. Into your actions. You fall into a trance of pursuing your anticipated rewards by doing more of what you think will bring them. World control becomes your aim. Ultimately, it's your-world control, and even your-inner-world control, by striving for outer world control. The unknowingly manipulated becomes a manipulator:
When other people are involved, you will try to please them to give them what makes them release the reward you seek. If the reward is inconsistent and unpredictable, you may try even harder, just trying to figure out how to get the desired love, attention, approval. This one is much harder to break, because when the reward doesn't come, you think you didn't do well enough - yet.
Upon stopping, you will notice a feeling of emptiness. The pursuit of anticipated desire fulfillment has been a kind of filling of its own. When you stop, emptiness strikes, and it strikes doubly: You lose the illusion of future fulfillment. And you lose the trance of pursuit.
Now, bam, you land in this moment and first thing is: Emptiness.
Previous Reader Remarks
3/3/2014 03:45:44 am
this part of the coercion of manipulation is exactly what was done to you so you would question yourself instead of seeing the truth and when you did you blew him out of the water ipso facto then he came after you by the entities he placed inside your body and in and around you. this is so straight out of the luciferian hand book. i am so proud of you and I'm in awe of your survival skills well done my love you have got to know that the goddess is proud of you and that you are a true goddess
Fear and Emptiness
According to my most recent blog entry, fear and emptiness are the great enemies of purpose. Trying to avoid feeling afraid in the face of a bully, and feeling empty in the face of seduction, is what keeps us in a trance of allowing manipulation to hook our psyche. This is what keeps us plugged into the illusions of our heart/mind. And we all know that's not what we want. We want to be real. Not in a holodeck, forgotten, by ourselves, who we are, and how we got there.
Fear is useless. I have learned that during times of real danger, physical or metaphysical, fear is utterly useless. At least that's true for me. Fear terrifies me and I can't think clearly. And yet, in such a situation, thinking clearly is of utmost importance.
I have a friend. I am quite certain that he has an immobile amygdala.* I'm not sure that my friend will admit this, but he does admit he's "not the fear type." That's putting it mildly. The amygdala, an almond shaped mass in the brain, processes anxiety, fear, and other emotions. When it doesn't move, digestion of emotions is inhibited. This has many implications, some of them rather disconcerting for the surrounding social environment. One is the complete absence of fear.
According to my understanding of the condition, there are no memories of scary events; no anticipation of punishment. No memory of punishment. Or other forms of painful events. This allows for what looks like a blatantly ruthless way of moving in the world, genuinely without concern for self or others, because there is no experience of fear-based suffering. There is also no truly personal experience, neither within, nor without. So other beings are impersonal, like chess pieces, and all that matters is to save the king, and to do so through strategy. There is no fear of social repercussions. The only discomfort is to find freedom limited, or ease impaired. But fear is no concept.
This is socially highly fascinating. Because recognizing how a person reasons and acts who does not experience fear, I realize how most of us, in fact, 97% of us, whose amygdala moves in response to impulses, and lets us know when we feel worry, fear, or caring concern, are completely hooked by avoiding negative social implications. Our entire society is BUILT on scaring each other from doing things that aren't generally acceptable. This means we constantly constantly constantly use each other's tendency to get afraid as a way to manipulate each other into being docile citizens.
And this is not just fear of obvious punishment such as prison or other types of blatant pains. This is simply the fear of subtle disapproval signals. We all send them. We roll our eyes. We smile at someone, and as soon as they look away, grimace. I try try try try try to keep myself from doing it when I find myself about to, or in the middle of it. I think it's the easy way out: I get away with quickly putting it on them when I'm uncomfortable with something they do, say, or express. Instead of looking into my own heart, honestly, I get to roll my eyes. Tiny. A tiny instant only. And yet so powerful. Just now behind their backs I have washed myself off my dirt and poured it over them. But really, all it means is that I get to keep my shit. You know what I mean? I get to stay unconscious. I get to ignore who I really am. In this moment. Of rolling my eyes.
You'd think since I try hard to prevent my doing this type of manipulation to others - or really, doing it to myself, since it's simply a way to avoid deeper self-knowledge - that I'd be freer when people do it to me. But I'm not. Maybe to some small extent, yes. I can sit there, once I realize what's happening, and go: "They are not doing this consciously. I understand how it happens." I have to be alert like a lynx to catch and keep myself from doing it. So I don't blame them. But even though I know that, the same way I do, it's just their way of keeping themselves comfortable and safe in who they think they are, and what they think is right and wrong, I still play. I play this social game of liking each other. (No this is not a fb joke but it could become one if I thought about it longer.)
I realize how much I am influenced by this quality of manipulation. It has become more subtle over the years - the decades of search for inner freedom have not completely left me without findings, thank the Goddess - but the principle remains the same: Without even being aware, I realize, in stark contrast to this bad friend of mine, that I am constantly juggling the avoiding of disapproval signals: will the receptionist be unhappy if I do that, will the waiter be happier if I do that. Do I need to go to this party, or what do I need to do to turn down the invitation without jeopardizing relations with others. I can't even list them or find appropriate situations. The ones I'm listing above are way too crude for what I'm actually trying to say here. It is so subtle, what I'm referring to, so subtle. Because once it becomes as obvious and crude as described, it becomes easy to deal with. But while it's in the subtle stages, it's such a pain of bondage. The bondage of mutual social conditioning.
Now of course put someone with a frozen amygdala, with complete absence of fears, including and especially these subtle social fears, with me, or anyone else (you, e.g.) whose amygdala functions unfrozenly toward providing a properly conditioned member of society - and you get an explosive, highly highly explosive, situation.
Because see, we usually regulate each other through these subtle fears and desires for acceptance and approval. If one side doesn't have that, but is extremely good at figuring out what signals to send to me to trigger me releasing of the goodies they want, but at the same time is completely immune to my subtly or directly communicated preferences regarding their goodies (directly communicated since, see above, that's what I strive for, out of fairness to those around me) - you can see, this spells disaster.
The reason this bugs me, and why I'm writing about it, is that I WANT MORE FREEDOM than this! I do think it's perfectly alright to care about other people enough to be concerned about their heart when making decisions. But I do not think that it's okay to be motivated by this subtle fear.
I appreciate my own efforts to become aware of my manipulating others, and stopping it. I am grateful for this friend because NONE of my previously unconscious manipulations work. And because they don't work the way they usually do, I finally get to see they're there, that I'm doing them. I get hit over my head by their absence of functioning on this man. But becoming aware so far has not protected me from falling for wanting to do, or refrain from doing, whatever the things are that would trigger his releasing of yummy goodies. Thus, driven by trying to avoid fear and emptiness - I've become a slave. So - you can see - he's getting a good deal. A very good deal.
This is the reason why I think fear is ultimately useless. Because the only purpose fear seems to serve is to be able to be manipulatable. By each other. It seems to be important for human ape society to function as well as it does. And we think it functions poorly. But really - it functions very well. And it's that subtle fear, amygdala moving produced worry and anxiety, that allows us to mold each other.
I seek a path past that. A path that allows for a healthy conscience. One that honors that I experience fear. But one that allows me to not get manipulated by that fear, or by the fear of feeling the fear. So - here I go, head on - readying myself to feel fear, and to experience emptiness - and to be free. With a heart. Free. With heart. Free. With heart.
*The result of a frozen amygdala is commonly referred to as "psychopathy" and, in milder terms, "sociopathy." Or in other words -- underlying psychopathy or sociopathy is given the physical cause of the amygdala remaining stuck. Mostly the difference is that a psychopath is more easily considered criminal when lacking the brilliance to escape jurisdiction.
Due proper alchemical respects, I have friends and family on the inner planes, including my inner soul husband and our three light body spirit children and their partners and children. Most of my inner experiences and outer writing include them.